Suicide tail with boyfriend?

OK. First off its a dream! It started with me and boyfriend being somewhere. It was known that we were going to die that day and we were rather calm. It was kinda like a Concentration Camp, but different. Here they give you pills and you die. So there we are chillen, and we get put in this room, pretty big room. We get our 4 pills each. So I ask him did you take yours. He says yea I took 3 already. So I take 2. I dont remember taking the other ones. But this guy came in the room and I asked him how long does this take, he says a few hours. I asked does it hurt. He said yes but it doesnt matter because you are gonna die anyways. And I guess that if you dont die in the time, then they come and kill you anyways. And given I am reading this book "IBM and the Holocaust". Havent picked it up in a week, but then again I havent even got to any of the camp parts or anything. So idk, then I am moving with my bf and Im scared. Im willing to jump if hes willing to jump? Is this a relationship that my subconscious is trying to end? What the hell is going on?